CHAPTER 18
OK, how can the creative energy that generates negativity from insult humor to boring or self-abusive lives be converted into constructive assets like supportive blendships, loving emotions, and jazzing fulfillment (personal and/or professional)? How do we convert stress into strength? How do we pull positive use out of past abuse? Simple. We do it by consciously recognizing the games we let ourselves play. When we identify them, we're better equipped to stop them. And, damn! There are so many lethal games in the Human Olympics. Insult humor, unhappiness, abuse, and gossip are toxic communicable dis-eases. The only cure is refusing to be a carrier. By not giving our energy to those dis-eases we lessen their power. We develop an immunity to their infections. We free ourselves by consciously choosing to be aware of our decision making processes within every area of daily life. Freedom begins by standing outside the games to see how we're participating or rooting them on. By detaching, we can see the areas of life that promote Toxic Games. Games that need not infect our lives. Then we can see we are never trapped. We do have optional arenas to visit. Mainly, we see we do have the choice to either voluntarily remain in man-made battles, or refocus our creativity toward thoughts and actions to improve our life. Though pulling away from the daily games may have an indirect affect on the other players, how they handle their choices is not ours to control. The best job we can strive for is to be our own guidance counselor. How do we recognize negative creativity? Easy. Stop and listen to everyday life; see how people treat one another; how you treat others; how they treat you; how you react to what others serve you; and how you view what you have created in your life. I'd like to share how I approached several Game fields, surveyed the battle, and discovered how to withdraw.
GOSSIP If someone calls with the latest dirt, ask yourself:
Why not refocus that energy? Try to change the subject. Discuss the side-effects of gossip with the caller like karmicly risking both your backs getting stabbed next. The feedback might prove enlightening and stimulating. Though you may discover no gossip spreader believes they are one. I found the quickest Gossip-Buster is absentia I have also learned:
BOREDOM If you complain of a boring life, ask yourself:
Suggested solutions:
HINT:
The clue to But-Passing-Denial is: I could... but! QUESTION:
I've noticed whenever we say we have nothing to do, there are mucho possibilities we avoid by using lack of another's participation or permission as an alibi. Boredom is a creative manifestation of resistance to activity, mental or physical. In a world were there is a vast smorgasbord of activity, it takes extraordinary energy to starve. Boredom is habit forming. And "No, I can't" or "I could, but" are handy turnoffs to the tasty treats life offers. To break the habit, force yourself to say: "Yes! I'll give it a try." It becomes a comfy new habit. Sure, every new activity may not be worth pursuing, however, each may open new doors to further explore. I crossed over Limitation Levee by realizing:
From then on, no matter what others asked regarding what I could creatively do, I'd say:
This mind frame freed me to probe all sorts of creative challenges, from illustrating motorcycles to skiing to painting a giant polarized wall mural to giving my first public lecture. I tagged this concept: The Cello Theory. MEANING:
BOREDOM-BREAKING EXAMPLE:
I suggest going back to Square Won. Tell that inner critic to get lost. Tell your doubt to take a hike. Get supplies, create a private space, play some fun music from a fun time span, slosh a paint brush, have FUN! Toss the rule books and play kiddo. Enjoy the doing. Don't agonize for a perfect result. We're talking art here. And, there is no "perfect." Don't limit yourself by assuming you have to be another Rembrandt, or whomever. We're not born to clone. There's only one of each of us. So, discover who YOU are. Art has no rules. No criteria. To prove this, check out any gallery to see the vast range of art. Anything goes. Your aim is to enjoy, not to seek approval from others. Your goal is to flex those little gray cells. Stimulate curiosity. Break the chain of denying YOU your own abilities. You don't have to let anyone near who's not supportive, or who needs you to dump their doubt upon, or who is anxious to ridicule or squelch your right to have fun. Ergo! This is why I'm suggesting that you send your Fear's Art Critic on an extended hikaroo. Remember: This is about encouraging your constructive creativity. Not about encouraging the destructive creativity of another. Possibly you might even copy a sign I once made and pinned over my art area. It simply read:
THOT:
WHINING & PINING If you feel sorry for yourself, resist the urge to amplify gloom and conjure all the possibilities that might go wrong in life. Stop feeding yourself opiates of: "I can't do anything right. Nothing good ever happens to me. I'm a born loser." If you accept your self-written bad reviews, then you'll be hiring them as your live-in prison guards. If you're letting deprecating toxins eat up your heart and spirit, then purge 'em. Change diets. In case of a Depression Emergency: call someone to find out how they're doing. Don’t Bitch and Whine. Cheer them up. Outreach is a fantastic way of forcing us to lessen our own melancholy by allowing us to discover solutions for our own grievances through helping others.
BITCHING (Akin to self-created boredom)
If so, welcome to the Land of Bitchdom! If these are traits within people you know, beware of the flying nonsense and tripping over their wet blankets. And if bitches visit you, a sure way to exile them, as with any insulter or whiner, is to not feed them. Look. Learn & Let Go. If they bitch about your refusal to be their audience, see it as a primo illustration that we don't have to be liked by everyone. It's emotionally expensive and ain't worth the trouble. If anyone repeatedly calls me to whine about their mate, kids, career, health, or whatever, I reply: "Well, I've heard all I need to hear. I've given you all the feedback I can. Sounds like you've got it under control. Sounds like you know what's bugging you and you seem to know what you need to do to solve it... so, call me back when you've gotten the divorce, or changed jobs, or lost those 20 pounds (or whatever it was they offered as a Whine Seller without wanting to explore solutions)." I rarely get callbacks. Though I usually hear another ear was chosen as the new moan-time audience, which is OK by me. Now it's up to someone else to listen… or not. I've also been a favored target of direct bitching. My only response is refusing to get caught up in either a false need to justify their ammo or compete in a Bitch-In. I don't play defense. And, by not playing the game, the tormentor gets bored eventually and looks for a new adversary. The game aborts due to lack of their hoped for gripevine response.
INSULTS TAKEN, UNWILLING If you're a target for insult jokes, don't feed the vulture. Insulters hunger for reaction, audience and attention. By not giving in as a target or bystander they deflate. Sure, it may only be for a moment, keeping these Yokers out of your lair takes time. They tend to justify your lack of enthusiasm for their attacks by thinking you don't know how to have real fun. But, they do eventually get bored and go. There was a guy I once knew that could have dethroned Rickles as an Insult Ragster. He would butcher any person, place or thing with the agility of a lunging cobra. Walking away when he was in the midst of scrapping his sharpest barb across my feelings was the only way to cancel his act. He once became quiet when I calmly interrupted him with: "Boy, you sure must have had a lousy day to be so angry. What's bugging you? Wanna talk?" By passing the Game to touching the heart, I learned to turn the target practice around, though not if there's a nearby audience. There was another fellow who laughed the loudest at his own putdowns, who once opened up to say "That's how my dad treated me. Always shooting zingers at me. Dad's way of saying I notice you, kid." When I asked if he liked it, he said he learned to live with it. At least it was something. Though his openness was short lived, he no longer used me as a bull sigh. As to recognizing yourself as a captured audience of an insulter, ask if you're laughing out of embarrassment or relief at not being the target. If so, Beware! It's a false safety that just delays your target-time. As to career insulters I don't serve them politeness. It's a waste. If you can't talk, then walk.
MATES OF DEGRADING INSULTERS Think you can't walk? Then ask: Why?
Whatever the answer, if it hurts it's not helping you or the kids exposed to it. It's not the way marriage has to be. It's the way you are choosing it to be.
KID CUTTING If you repeatedly tell your kids they're stupid or worthless or whatever non-positive phrase barfs out, ask:
CHILD ABUSE… ADULT SURVIVORS
HOW MUCH CREATIVITY ARE YOU KILLING IN THE EFFORT TO:
BOTTOM LINE:
THOT:
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